So, here we are.
When I originally came up with the idea of The Bipolar Diet Blog I had some awesome & funny ideas to start of with, to entice you to read further, but now, sat here, I cannot remember one thing I thought about earlier today as I made my first morning coffee.
Maybe a good place to start is what I intend to do with The Bipolar Diet Blog;
Please be aware that this is not a diet per se but a way of life that I intend to create for myself. I am not asking you to join me, nor am I going to ram dieting tips down your neck, but I will tell you about the choices I am trying to make and break in my life.
My Bipolar Diet Blog is a lifestyle and I will try to be brutally honest with you all – I need to be to stop tripping myself up and feeling guilty about food choices.
You see, several years I was diagnosed with Bipolar and most recently OCD. For years I have strugggled and yo-yo dieted. Things need to change and, after a bad week, I was thinking about joining Slimming World again. But, for me, I know, this will not be a wise choice. Now, I am in no way against Slimming World and have many friends who have been successful and kept their weight off.
I lost weight with Slimming World but, due to my own issues, put all the weight back on, and some more.
Ok, a lot more.
I suppose the signs that slimming clubs weren’t for me was back when every week, after being weighed, I would have a huge pig out. And boy, I mean huge. I was probably quite a disgusting sight – I know that I always felt it at the end of the night and I’d often swear never again. But then by the next week I’d gone without so much that I literally couldn’t help myself.
I need to do this with realistic aims for myself – what works for one does not necessarily work for another.
So, let’s set the record straight – this isn’t a diet based on food – it’s a lifestyle change, which will include hobbies, exercise & activities to help my mental health as well as eating for a better quality of life. Although I am not going back to ‘dieting’, I am trying to lose weight.
I am overweight. Well actually, I am now in the ‘Obese’ section, so yes, for my health I NEED to shed the excess weight I have gained from both medication and overeating/comfort eating/binging.
I had, with some success, been tracking my calories (and until this week it was going well) with a mobile phone app, but I hadn’t obsessed about having to stick to it, like I had done previously and then tried to make up for whatever I’d done by being even stricter. This time, if I went over my daily allowance I just accepted it – which is a positive sign that I am learning to do this PROPERLY along with exercise.
I’ve always been quite an active person but there are two warning signs I need to look out for in exercise due to my bipolar.
- In a manic episode I tend to over-exercise so I have to keep a close eye on how much I am doing so not over exert myself but, at the moment I’m good. In the past I have missed periods because of over exercising.
- In a depressive episode I will not exercise – I generally need to do some exercise every day for my general well being. Don’t worry I do give my body rest days but I have to take note of my mood fluctuations too.
My usual exercise routine
- I walk the dog around 4/5 times a week (my partner does the other days)
- I aim to get to the gym 3/4 times a week and do a mixture of both cardio and weights. I have only recently added weights to my routine after always wanting to ‘lose weight’ first, but I can honestly say that within a week of lifting weights I felt a lot better and could feel change.
My exercise routine can, quite honestly, change for the worse. For example, this week, I haven’t been to the gym at all. I have hardly walked the dog either and, I’ve just eaten crap all week. It may be a lame excuse but I’ve been extremely tired and am gradually coming off my mood stabilising medication. One of the many symptoms is muscle aches and tiredness – I literally feel like I’ve done several HITT sessions at the gym even though I’ve not done a thing.
I daren’t step onto the scales because I know I’ll be disheartened with the huge amount I will have put back on – so I am not going let the scales demoralise me. Yes, it’s been a bad week – BUT THIS DOESN’T HAVE TO CONTINUE.
In just writing this I am feeling better. My mood is lifting immensely and, in the words of REM, ‘I feel fine.’
This is my journey, this is my life.